Posts Tagged ‘ self ’

What to follow now?

The one constant that will always be relevant, current, real and applicable to everyone forever is oneself.

The Projector

You are not what is projected. You are the projector.

Whoever you are

We have an unimaginable amount of options and choices at any given moment.  The oppositions we face that deny our options and choices do not simply dictate our identity, they challenge us to overcome them so our true identity can be revealed to us.  We do have choice, unless we believe we are weak and not clever.
What if we believed that this was it?  Life is school and marriage, definitions and labels, Popes and Presidents, war and television, fashion and fame and all those other things we have accepted as our reality.  Internal transformation is not measurable or probable so it can not exist as a “real” thing.  Your sense is the illusion.  What is taught, glorified, and valued is real.  We are just consumers, this is life so get used to it and find your own comfy place within it.  Maybe we will hang out and get drunk sometimes.  This is what has been labeled as realistic thinking somehow.  Realistically speaking, it is actually hopeless thinking and does not encourage healthy growth.  More and more medication is being prescribed to children to get them to accept the hopeless world they are born into.  But that energy still burns deep down.  They can’t snuff it out with injected chemicals and constant media influence.  We know that our true identities are not based on this empty system of carrot holders and chasers.
We are being taught on manufacturing lines here in America and many other countries.  We are filled with content that we sling everywhere without knowing why.  What is our point?  Are we looking for admiration or is it self validation?  Is it to gain or to give?  Do we have no message in a time like this?  Is it really just this and that and chit chat for us?  Have we traded our sense for a definition because we believe that is all we have the capacity for?  Were we made for this system or has this system made us?
We are hardly taught to seek understanding of who we are and why we do what we do.  If we had been, maybe we would see that our true identities are not just stupid civilians who can’t even follow the rules.  We don’t have to be hopeless sinners waiting on death to bring us to heaven.  We are living by rule instead of law.   We seek external heavens of golden everythings instead of being in heaven through loving ourselves and each other.  It actually is that simple.  It takes specifics and details to construct the lies that lead us away from love and a better way of life.
Knowing oneself is good for clarity but it might not be inherit or automatic under certain social structures.  It can take serious effort and a type of humble honesty mixed with courage in the dark to make it through the frightening and clever defenses of the constructed self.  If your capacity for creating is large, then you will be mighty impressed with the elaborateness of your work, should you face it.  Until the mind can detach itself from that identity it will continue to operate on that frequency.  It is still able to be creative and intelligent, but only to benefit and solidify its false identity.
If you have ever been in a predicament that led you to accepting that you were about to die then you have probably felt what it means to really let go of your constructed identity.  None of that matters for a moment and you can catch a glimpse of yourself for as long as you believe your constructed identity is no longer needed.  That is the liberating part, when you realize the wasted effort in projecting a false identity to people that need to see you in order to see themselves.


The one


It’s in all of us.  The hero, the protagonist, the one.  We are just buried deep within our acceptable, safe, constructed selves.  We are the vessels that suppress the energies that burn inside us everyday.  What we are capable of is mind blowing.  Deep down you know that is true of yourself, don’t you?  You might not be alone.
Most people seem to be doing the same things so we construct our projected selves to fit in and thrive according to the environment, but that is not who you are.  You created that while being influenced by the social structures you spent your time in.  You are the driver of the vessel.  You decide what to project to the world.
We have developed our environment to be as systematic and mapped out as possible.  Everything seems mundane because we feel that we were designed for much more.  The tools and resources we already have are capable of taking us to better places if only we knew how to harness them.  Is that wishful thinking or is it what fuels growing toward our potentials?  For example; there was a time that I could not do a kick flip on a skateboard.  It tried and failed miserably.  I wished I could, not by effortless will, but by practice, and my wish came true.  The skateboard does not exist to kick flip itself, it will just sit there unless somebody who believes in their own potential harnesses it as a tool.  Had it not been for the first guy to ever perform a kick flip, it may have never been viewed as something we were capable of doing.  It was only designed to roll, not flip at that point.  The skateboard transformed after that and so did the beliefs and abilities of the riders.  You can study the mechanics of the skateboard forever and never translate it into the revelation of a kick flip.  You learn to ride it by feeling it, falling down, and trying again.  You get results that way, the kind you might not believe in had you not experienced it yourself.  What makes this difficult to grasp, metaphorically and literally, is that the skateboard can always hurt you if you are not careful.  You will fall and that is part of understanding.  You must catch yourself and not lose sight of your potential if you are to succeed.  Some will not be able to ride the skateboard and they will give up and advise others to do the same.  Others will wish they could, but fear will tell them that they are too smart to try.  The worth and the point of doing a kick flip can not be measured through the skateboard itself.  The worth is in the entity that knows what they experienced was intangible life manifested by a personal belief in themselves and it was much more real than anything they have ever read or been taught.  Just don’t run into any parked cars.

The dark wolf

There is usually a dark wolf you must face alone on the path of further self awareness. Do not be deterred.

%d bloggers like this: